Fear

You’re afraid of throwing up because you know one day

you’ll choke

You’re afraid of deep water because you know the

monsters that wait below

You’re afraid of the dark not because of monsters but because

you fear men

You’re afraid of dying alone but you are far more afraid

of breaking someone’s heart

of having your heart broken

of having a heart so cold it is impossible to break

You’re afraid of success but you are more afraid

of failure, but you are most afraid of all of

fading away into mediocrity

one grey face in a sea of anonymous features.

You’re afraid of yourself,

of getting better but not going up,

of getting better but still hating yourself,

of getting better and eating meals and not hating yourself.