• Endless Annoyance

I am slowly working to eliminate small annoyances from my life. It's very difficult, because my autism and OCD often gang up to convince me that everything is eternal and my efforts will be useless. I'm slowly coming to realize that my frustration tolerance isn't as high as I thought it was, and the internet is convinced that if I just keep myself in a constant state of misery and anger, that will somehow make things better. I doubt that, so I will not be doing that. It's far more likely that changing my environment so it's more accomodating is going to help. It's difficult, when my whole life I've been trained to ignore my own comfort. But it's slowly coming together. I'm going to figure out how to put on this sofa cover if it kills me (and it just might. it's very confusing.)

Per my therapist, I've decided to convert my desk in my bedroom into a hobby space. I will need to figure out how to reconfigure all the stuff on it, which barely fits as it is, and then figure out how to get more stuff onto it. Reading, knitting, writing, and sewing will all need to happen on this desk, which I will also need to keep the area tidy so that my OCD doesn't get stuck on endless tidying.

I'm also trying to commit back to yoga and working out more. Working out is in big sarcastic air quotes here, because apparently what I consider a workout is what fitness websites consider warming up.