• Celebration, and Discipline

So I'm gonna celebrate my birthday in a big way. I usually don't, cause I'm broke and an adult, but it's the big three oh and I got into nursing school, so I feel like it deserves a big celebration. I might actually get a cake for the first time in over a decade, and because I'm a lame old Black man in a young Black man's body, I'm gonna go bowling. I'm inviting all one of my friends, and all two of my acquaintances, and my metamour, and my husband of course.

It's only been two weeks since my PT had to take leave for surgery, and I pretty much immediately fell off doing my exercises. I've only used the wand she gave me once, and you can tell. My hips are really stiff and achey again, and while I'm able to have sex, I still have mild cramping after the fact, and I still struggle staying wet enough to have sex comfortably. I know she said it would take a while, but she also said I would need to be vigilant, which I haven't been doing. I've also stopped working out and doing yoga.

Talking to my therapist about stress, a lot of it comes down to control. I need to take control of the things I can control, and focus on that. That means keeping to my schedule, continuing to work on my health, actually easing discomfort when it happens instead of just powering through, and giving myself time to rest. All things I am horrible at.